Cynthia:
Please read:
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Song_of_a_Storm_petrel
This well known prose by Gorky mightt be your portrait. Gorky means "bitter, hardship", in Chinese is "xin=Cyn". That is what the Chinese perceive the first part of your name--"hardship(Cyn)". The rest is "west(thi) " and "in law(ia)".