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Peggy,
You certainly have summed up all that I have been trying to formulate into words but couldn't seem to speak.
As in my previous post, I have been trying to enter competitions and have for many years (local mostly) within the state. Why? Well, I do like to see where I rate on smaller scale and yes, I like my peers to see my work and be accepted. In my small town, if you cannot keep producing some sort of "proof" of yourself, well...you disappear. I have worked long and hard and yes, maybe beginning later in life but still have that need.
I constantly want to enter on larger levels (many of which you mention) as I am member. But each time, I find myself saying "I will as soon as I have a great painting to offer, so back to the drawing board and in some way, that seems to create fear in me and I fall into the same tracks locally to get that "atta girl" pat on the back.
Do you think this is common?
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